i feel very broken and lost. 

like i don't what i'm doing or what i should be doing.

i've come to the point where i don't want to be recognized at all.

i see stares and whispers and everyone knows who i am by sight or name.

i'm not motivated to do anything anymore,

i've come in a full circle again from last year.

i change my hair drastically when something significant happens or whatever.

the last time this happened was when i went blonde, not when i went pink, pink was just cause i alrdy had blonde hair so why not.

so. i'm gonna be unrecognisible, and i'm gonna lose tons of weight to achieve that, which shouldn't be too hard this term cause i'll hardly be eating.

..

i'm going milktea!

soon la. when i have the money