Sunday, October 05, 2008
brutally honest.
how can you let smth go that you want, so much.
i've always been able to somehow, i don't know suppress the want. nugget it and store it away, and it gets smaller and smaller until eventually it disappears.
which is why my friends have never seen me like this over, over well, something thats not worth my time.
its been four months or something like that. i've gone from sad to angry to god knows what.
they say, let go.
i say, how?
i was wondering outloud to myself the other day and (skinny)nick happened to be there,
i don't understand how ppl can commit to someone to the point of getting married (this is in referance to derek being with his gf for 7 years now, nt that they're getting married, just saying.)
and nick said: wait till you get older. or smth along those lines.
i think i've done everything i can. but i just want to do more.
aiya. fuck it.
everytime i say his loss. i think its more of MY loss.
jade;d @ 4:29 AM
