salsa takes too much if not all my time, its time i learnt some self restraint. yes i love it, but its a hobby, not my life. my life has to be school now, its sad but i need it to be that way so i don't fail every module i have.

i have been procrasinating so much its killing me. 

i have my finals to do and i havent even touched that. as well and my long term projects. its time to clean my room and organize myself.

i have to study and learn in class, not dream. i have to have an actual note book, not scraps of paper.

i have to turn my attention to my mother, who wants me to do so well but stands me even though i'm being a bitch.

last night she woke up at 3 just cause i called her to get me hot water for my waterbottle for my tummy, was having cramps.

i have to take responsibility for my life and get it on track. its a mess. i can't afford to get less than 60 for any of my subjects or its gonna be a 1k+ amount to pay every time.

so please, jade.

be smart.

this is not growing up, its just a part of it. its called taking responsibility. something everyone should have, not just adults.

so friends, i'm not getting pre-maturely senile, just smarter.