Sunday, January 06, 2008
i thought i'd gotten past this stage, the whole, not enough thing.
you spent so long getting fine with it and now you're pretty much okay.
until, until, you find yourself inferior to someone, then it lashes back out.
and you wonder, how you were ever able to get used to that scar,
the one that just reopened when you least expected.
i'm pulling back now.
i'm not gonna try anymore, cause everytime it ends the same way.
it was never gonna be my turn anyway. i knew that. in a way, everyone did.
you can hope, but whats hope without abit of a miracle to fuel belief?
haha, i'm back here at square one again. peeping behind curtain number 3 and i'm not surprised to see nothing, nothing at all. after all, the last 2 were empty too.
jade;d @ 1:01 AM
