Sunday, May 14, 2006
i walk into this estate,
i'm already up to here with my father (motions with a flat hand cutting across upper throat)
and i see a pool. and about 3 houses around this one pool. and im like. wow.
i ask if its one huge mansion or if its individual house to my mom.
she snaps, "you didn't want to come in the first place, why do you want to ask questions now?" and she shoots me a dirty glare.
it's my father's fault.
i am certain.
had he not pissed me off,
i wouldn't be ashen faced and my mother wouldn't snap at me.
he just cannot shutup. its hella irritating.
i am ashamed of him.
there is no excuses for this miserable waste of space.
he is just,
a waste of space.
a miserable excuse of a man boy.
but i guess i love him.
i just do not like him at all.
SIGH.
anyway, i walk into this house. (its quite... ugly i suppose, the lawn is earth with feeble patches of grass splattered here and there) but her lighting is what i want to have when i have a house. light, dark. yellow. candle lit, but alittle brighter then that. her staircase leads to the only 2 rooms of this huge house. i'm ushered into the children's room. (which if not for the maplestory posters and pictures, you would mistake for a display in IKEA, bare but you know its the children's room) then into the master bed room. the room itself is small (i expected high ceilings etc.) but then she has a walk in closet (which is actually the corridor to the bathroom) her bathroom is two times the size of mine, polished marble floors, purple maroon toilet seat with matching bathtub and gleaming golden handles of taps. its big.
and after this. i look at the guests. the closest one to my age is 12 (i totally expected this, which is why i wanted to leave for town. THEN I DISCOVERED THAT IM AT EXPO/CHANGI) and then ther other one is 8 (who is gonna be hella cute when hes older. he plays rugby (: ) and the rest are adults, don't mistake that there are alot of adults, there are only about 6 the last time i went down, bare in mind my parents alone make up about 1/3 of the current guests. shes suppose to have 20 people coming hmmm... (yes its a hostess.)
sigh.
i wish i was in town.
with nick.
or with anyone else that i like.
at starbucks,
with a caramel frap.
with extra cream and caramel. woooo.
i thought i lost weight this morning (being 54kg)
then i realised my eyes were tricking me in the afternoon (55kg)
then at about 5 (before i left.) i was a stunning (56kg)
jesus.
okay im tempted to keep on typing.
i really don't want to be here. especially since it's so hot and theres not air-con.
and the only game here is like. maple story.
excuse me?
and my mother told me off for not wanting to come. HAH.
i thought i've gotten over the times where i've felt inferior to the adults cause i didn't understand their speak/ lingo.
i understand it now. and i realise it's only intresting if you're in their generation. not meaning that they're old or anything. but yea.
besides, all they have is small talk.
and i can't even drink,
cause if i do they'll laugh and i'll just be like. oh whatever forget it.
y'know?
i wish i was at home.
oh wait no i don't.
ai lin will be home.
things have changed since my cousin arrived.
if you looked at her and me,
cousins? MY ASS.
i don't like things at home.
i love my cat.
and happy mothers day mummy.
i love you too.
jade;d @ 7:26 PM