Sunday, December 11, 2005
i really miss maxine and sarah and bel.
when they are not around its not so much fun.
oh well. an update.
1. kyna came back the day they left.
2. ive only gone out once since they've left.
3. i went to year end party with nam, chuting and jianyang. (shinta)
4. i didn't win anything at the lucky draw, again. (1st prize was a flat screen tv. the lucky bugger)
5. my mother said she loved me today. i cant remember her ever saying that.
6. my comp is back alive. internet and all.
mary belongs to the words of a song.
1. kyna came back the day they left.
it was great seeing her back. i really missed her (: i love her so much. shes was having a great time in australia of course. (: shes got a boyfriend now. but unfortunatly she hasnt gone out with him yet, shes it to do so when she goes back which is like in jan. but her boyfriend, will, is a real sweetie, he makes her so happy. and i love seeing her happy (:
2. ive only gone out once since they've left.
with kyna and bex. oh yes and karen. went to watch harry pothead. again. what a waste. ha. karen met us after the movie, then we all took neoprints. ha. then kyna had to go home cause her mom was having a hissy fit. then bex wanted to go home at 5 so she left. then we went to watch aeonflux with terris, ben and others. i found the movie good. the guys didnt. karen agreed with me. so cool (:
3. i went to year end party with nam, chuting and jianyang. (shinta)
oh yes, and with ebx and kyna too. we didnt really have alot of fun. if we did have fun, then i could rememebr it. and i dont remember having any fun except watching and laughing at shang long trying to play basketball. me and minnie nearly pissed in our pants laughing, so we had to run to a toilet. ha.
4. i didn't win anything at the lucky draw, again. (1st prize was a flat screen tv. the lucky bugger)
as usual i didnt win anything. i was surprised i didn't see felix this year. i mean like dude. he always wins something. ALWAYS. and one of shanglong's friends won a DVD player. but whatever. i really wanted the flat screen. some old around his 40s got it. the lucky bugger.
5. my mother said she loved me today. i cant remember her ever saying that.
after doing her workshop thing today she said she loved and admitted to being rude and mean to me lately, i almosted cried. my eyes started watering. lucky she didnt notice. i mean i really do love my mother. and i damn happy when she said that. i saw for the first time in sucha long time, my mother. not some screaming banshee. oh god i missed her so much.
for my beloved mother: ilu. so so much. so so so much that it hurts. to see you scream at me and be disapointed at me. it hurts so much when i break your heart because i love you so much. thanks you mummy for bringing me up and for just being my mother.
6. my comp is back alive. internet and all.
my computer is working again. yay. i have been suffering for the past 1-2 weeks without it. im not too sure if ive been kicked from the designing compy yet.
okay and now to the practical stuff!
i miss shawn. we must go out. a must. (:
so yea. okay love everyone. no one is gonna read this at all i know.
but i just thought it was worth posting.
yar? (:
okay toodles
im so okay, you dont have to worry about me.
i think ive grown up. im so wrong.
i was leaning on something and i had a false feeling of standing on my own two feet.
i still need to learn to be mature and grow up in my own way.
and i still need my friends, my close knit of them. all of them.
we only stand,
if its safe to fall.
11.23pm
jade;d @ 10:45 PM