Tuesday, August 16, 2005
i don't know why somethings are the way they are.
but i guess thats the same for everyone.
im trying to create a smile but i turn it into a frown along with anger instead.
im trying to make things right,
but its like im in a hole..
and i forgot how the world works..
so instead of digging up i dig down.
down till the center.
until its too hot,
then i die.
and all that time i was wondering why i never got out.
im sorry i don't make things right.
but i don't know what to do.
i don't know why you are the way you are.
it makes no sense to me but yet i still try to help.
but heh.
not enough.
most of the time things are too smart for me,
and i end up further back then when i started.
its 1 step forward and 2 back for me.
your
fine. do whatever you want. i don't CARE anymore.
attitude.
really hurts.
its a fucking painful attitude.
cause i don't mind,
but you think i just don't want to do it.
it's never been that way.
it's just that... ok here it is...... im weak. happy?
i can't stand up for myself.
i've NEVER said im weak before.
never.
what if.. ariel bought you a cd and you are to send it to him, but rah says not the nice songs. you don't at first but then he finds out and asks for the rest.. would you say that rah doesn't let you?
honestly.
maybe you wouldn't send it.
but thats YOU.
not me.
you have a stronger backbone then mine.
i don't see the use of otherwise.
what changes?
seriously.
just delete him if you hate him so much.
just stop having anything to do with him.
his msn nick/blog.
alright?
im not angry.
im just hurt and confused.
8.23pm
jade;d @ 8:07 AM