Sunday, March 20, 2005
Ok day 3.
I just forced my stomach to do 20.
(YES TWENTY!!! (: )
sit-ups.
not that bad.
(bullshit)
My stomach isn't showing ANY signs of exercise.
( damn. T.T )
but then again its been only 3 days.
( wtf. ONLY 3? )
I shall continue until I have my FLAT stomach.
therefore no one shall ever say im FAT again.
harhar.
you know,
i really think this is getting to my head.
Last night i dreamt that at LEAST five people told me.
Jade!
You've gain so much weight!
You're stomach is HUGE.
You're thighs are TERRIBLE!!
OMFG!!!!!!!!!
NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh.
cannot cannot.
MUST LOSE WEIGHT.
anyway.
back to the life I have outside my obsession of having a flat tummy.
My.
mom.
might.
be.
going.
away.
for.
one.
month.
to.
the.
US.
(yay? I think not.)
leaving.
me.
in.
my.
father's.
care.
for.
that.
entire.
month.
and.
leaving.
ME.
in.
singapore.
rotting.
away.
when.
I.
so.
badly.
wanna.
go.
too.
wtf?!
one month is my father's care?
I rather go tame lion's.
I'll be in soooo much shit.
I'll be swimming in it.
hello?!
My pocket money?
how about when my dad comes home drunk?
he wont be able to save till the end of the month.
he will start getting money off me.
this is so unfair.
im going to have one hell of a shitty month.
IF she goes away.
she will only go away if she gets the visa.
actually,
im being kinda selfish about this.
(my cme teacher will be so proud. Im thinking of others)
I mean.
My mom.
MY MOM.
who has like been giving me money since I was little.
and who has been like cleaning the house non-stop.
and who has been like bringing home money.
(because my cock of a father can't)
and who has been like practically been lifting the whole family on her shoulders.
should.
SHOULD.
have a break.
really.
but why doesn't she bring me along?
her reason to go there is cause of a meeting (3 days. whatever)
but she wants to stay for a month.
she needs it.
she will stay at a friend's place up there.
sighs.
IM SO DEAD.
im going to go dig my grave now.
10.45am
[ poof. ]
jade;d @ 10:33 AM